So much like the 'glass-half-full-or-glass-half-empty' debacle, there is the debacle of 'welcome-the-new-beginning-or-regret-the-unanticipated-end'. Changes are good, but every so often they are painful. Pretty sure, if left to out choices, majority of us wouldn't change. That's human nature....every so often we crib about our monotonous life, we complain the same routine, we demand something different but then again, most of us when being true and reflecting to our own-self; do agree that there is a comfort in the unknown burden, there is a feeling of having the upper hand while playing in a known field. So while we do crib, complain, pretend we want a change; a part of us (rather the major part of us) is at rest seeing life pass by in the known comfort.
But then life at times has its own plans. You're forced to play a hand of the game you always stayed away from. You avoided making choices for so long that life went ahead and choose it for you. All then a human does is plays the cards he is dealt with the best. While it's true that as human we always want choice, I do believe as humans we always avoid choices. Picking one means leaving the other and oh, we so don't want to leave anything. We hold on to what's not really our end-goal for so long that often too late do we realize that we stopped back at a point called 'nowhere'. Worse still, while we were busy convincing ourselves (and all too few people we ever are lucky to have care about us), not only the 'nowhere' turned out to be a place we can't build a home at, no matter what; it also appears that the way from 'nowhere' to 'somewhere' has been buried. We are stuck to a place we can't stay at (and now no longer even want to) but we don't have any path to go anywhere off to either.
Then, given we have no choice, we finally (wo)man up. Start carving out the way, dig back the path we buried over the years thinking this 'nowhere' is our own personal 'everywhere'. We try and pretend it's a new beginning, it so isn't. It's the no-choice handled to us and just because us human usually have a real tough time openly accepting defeat, we gear up and crusade ahead. No matter how many times we think about calling it quits, there is something in us that keeps finding excuses (and always great ones at that), to give life another shot, to rebuild our goals again...to beg, borrow or steal a new path (who really creates a path too long by himself).
While so cryptic (or is it really is), I stand in a similar situation. So much I lived for, so much I thought was right approach to life, so much I believed was the sensible-mature-oh-so-grown-up-me's view on how life should be; is headed to an end. I already might be too late (only I probably have an ink-link of how much) and I do know that very likely I'll make mistakes again. But for the moment, here is to the me trying to re-figure life, trying to go back to basics and hoping to start something afresh. Not that it's going to be easy, not that it was even a choice...just that it was all I could do, so here's to me hoping for earnestly doing something (right for a change)...
And with this, while I make an entry back to the space after years (the ending few years back was unanticipated, the beginning now shaky and not really promising), here is hoping and wishing I would reach the destination this time around (and also hoping that the next post would make some more sense to at least me, if not the world)...Cheers (with the Virgin Mojito, as always!)
But then life at times has its own plans. You're forced to play a hand of the game you always stayed away from. You avoided making choices for so long that life went ahead and choose it for you. All then a human does is plays the cards he is dealt with the best. While it's true that as human we always want choice, I do believe as humans we always avoid choices. Picking one means leaving the other and oh, we so don't want to leave anything. We hold on to what's not really our end-goal for so long that often too late do we realize that we stopped back at a point called 'nowhere'. Worse still, while we were busy convincing ourselves (and all too few people we ever are lucky to have care about us), not only the 'nowhere' turned out to be a place we can't build a home at, no matter what; it also appears that the way from 'nowhere' to 'somewhere' has been buried. We are stuck to a place we can't stay at (and now no longer even want to) but we don't have any path to go anywhere off to either.
Then, given we have no choice, we finally (wo)man up. Start carving out the way, dig back the path we buried over the years thinking this 'nowhere' is our own personal 'everywhere'. We try and pretend it's a new beginning, it so isn't. It's the no-choice handled to us and just because us human usually have a real tough time openly accepting defeat, we gear up and crusade ahead. No matter how many times we think about calling it quits, there is something in us that keeps finding excuses (and always great ones at that), to give life another shot, to rebuild our goals again...to beg, borrow or steal a new path (who really creates a path too long by himself).
While so cryptic (or is it really is), I stand in a similar situation. So much I lived for, so much I thought was right approach to life, so much I believed was the sensible-mature-oh-so-grown-up-me's view on how life should be; is headed to an end. I already might be too late (only I probably have an ink-link of how much) and I do know that very likely I'll make mistakes again. But for the moment, here is to the me trying to re-figure life, trying to go back to basics and hoping to start something afresh. Not that it's going to be easy, not that it was even a choice...just that it was all I could do, so here's to me hoping for earnestly doing something (right for a change)...
And with this, while I make an entry back to the space after years (the ending few years back was unanticipated, the beginning now shaky and not really promising), here is hoping and wishing I would reach the destination this time around (and also hoping that the next post would make some more sense to at least me, if not the world)...Cheers (with the Virgin Mojito, as always!)
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