The Season of Season 2

Yeah, I know...its evident from the title that the post is all about sequels...I can't help it...that's what has become the life of television these days...gone are the days when numerous seasons of a show were a thing of western countries...now we are at par with them at every step of life, sitcoms included....in fact we are, as everywhere else, a step ahead of them....

They at least have a common story line spanning across the seasons...season which telecast like once a week for some 20-24 odd weeks..but nah, we Indians love to talk, love to narrate stories, and of course love to add our emotions and feelings into everything...so here we are...our serials (we are now strictly against sitcoms, they are meant just for SAB TV, a channel half the TV watching junta is unaware of)...so our serials are on air at least 5 days a week (we proudly announce when that  days a week becomes 7 days a week...and some of us r left thanking the fact that a week has just 7 days n not more :P )...and these serials go on for like 3-4 years in the least....and when they finally do end (after 4-5 marriages, a couple of rebirths, some illegitimate series of kids and what not) they come back as season 2...promising the same characters and a different story (which it never is...and I don't blame the creatives for it...after all, they already have tried all permutation and combination of events and stories to keep on continuing the initial show for years...and finally had to end it up because all ideas were exhausted...)

So why season 2 suddenly...well because my once-upon-a-time-favorite-show is back with season 2... (yeah I do watch serials even when I'm in hostel...even if it takes me 2 hours to buffer a 20 minute show :-| that's called loyalty :P which is applicable only to series and serials, never to books and studies :D ) and well, even because what started in India as a phenomenon for reality shows (Indian Idol I guess was the first step) has now spread to almost all segments today...and the main reason behind season 2 is the popularity of few lead characters...(we Indians are again great as far as being a fan is considered...where else would you find people worshiping a film star, fighting for and against them...it happens only in India :D )

The question all this however raises is, don't we, in fact can't we let go off things till the time they remain good n sweet...till the characters, till the serial has a fan following and demand we continue digging in them, cashing on it...till we of course get bored out of it or find something better and start condemning the very thing we were once a fan of...is it just with celebs and characters or does it hold true in our lives too...we get obsessed with something, some person, some work till it completely goes wrong (trust me, my life experience says the more you care and fret about a thing or a person the quicker you mess it up :D kindly refer to Mr Dev Anand, his ever growing youth and the promise to deliver a superhit movie with him as a hero :'( ) 

Yeah yeah, I again know, anyone would think where I start the talks from, and where I take it...but still the ever coming up sequels (which stop only after failing disastrously) and the ever present copies of a successful design and idea ( given that Steve Jobs is so much in news, I am reminded of touch phone craze started by them) why is it that most of us prefer trying out a tried, tested and successful combination rather than daring to start something new ( being almost an MBA I know the first movers and strategic follower pros and cons, but I even know that very rarely do B Schools in India produce entrepreneurs, most of the products like me are back to rat race of a cool high paying job, which never remains cool from the first day we join it ;) )

And to conclude the post ( which was actually tough, because even I don't know why I wrote whatever I wrote...its like becoming the way I senselessly write answers in exams now a days but that at least is done for a reason, it in the least would fetch me some marks ;) ) just found what I love finding, yup a quote on happy ending...(if anything of such kind exists because to the best of my knowledge, if its happy, it  doesn't end...and if it ends, its never happy but now, is the turn of some famous quotation n not my round the miss thoughts...yup everyone can fold their hands and thank God :P )

“If you want a happy ending, that depends, of course, on where you stop your story.”

But if only we were able to learn how to stop (if I had known my blog would have stopped long back...trust me :-| )

PS 1: In the interest of the poor reader of the posts, I thought of trying to keep my thoughts in italics, making it easier for them to skip my non ending chatter...but then, if one doesn't want to listen to my chatter, they never 'll read the post/blog...right??

PS 2: I love writing PS...thats a secret let out :P ...but just thought of adding a small video cum promo of the season two which gave me a useless but still a topic enough to write a post on :D

Back into times...

How many times have everyone of us felt like going back into time...changing things of our past..just correcting that one small mistake we made...or erasing a life altering incident...then no, I don't want to do any such thing by going back in times....I've just grown accustomed to whatever life has brought to me...and I guess I'm no longer the me who would survive in those times...adapted to changing circumstances...or heck, maybe I do want to change things in my past...but that ain't possible...so this time, its like wishing something new :D

I don't want to change anything...I just want to live my life the way it was in the past...where the biggest problem of my life was to make someone take me seriously (now I just hope n pray people don't take my humour n fun remarks seriously :( )

Those were the days when my biggest lie was a bad stomachache or faking fever to bunk school...when my biggest competitor was mom for pa's undivided attention....I just want to be back in the times when the solution to all my problems were readily available with pa ( trust me, till date he solves most of the issues around me :P ) times when all that did hurt was scraping knees (I still remember getting a glass cut on my feet and all the care and attention I enjoyed from bhaiya...he actually did carry me inside n attended to the wound :D I want to be hurt the same way again...I want to be tended the same way too :-| It has been years since I've been that close to him)....

When the biggest mistake I did was not finishing my homework....the best excuses made were blaming it on di (yes di, I do remember breaking the tape recorder's antenna and telling to mom that you might have broken it...simply bcoz u were far away in hostel and mom would forget the incident by the time u came, which she didn't :( meri chori pakdi gayi... :'( ) Times when all I wanted was a new pair of shoes (which I still do, but now I need bags, earrings, dresses, and the list goes on...too) ....

Times when an argument with a friend lasted for few minutes...all it took to make things merry again, was a chocolate...the days of 'kutti' and 'pucchi'...those were the days I really lived...the times I smiled from my heart...happiness is something I had then....

And before I conclude this brief post (miraculously brief because I've spent all my energy writing 3 papers which took all my creativity away...) I'm just reminded about a song I had heard back in those days...heard, learned, sung too....never realized its meaning then...now I do....

I love love but...

I guess I was just waiting for d clock to strike 12..so dat I don't break a promise on promise day itself..yeah I know I had promised a proper post wid proper reasoning and perfect reasoning and I frankly doubt if this post wud qualify dat criteria..for a change,this is my first post from mobile..so hopefully it 'll b small given how typing on a touch phone is a deadly task..

So coming to d post..d week of love made me feel a lot of things..starting from d fact dat I'm almost 24 n single, it was a mixed feeling..yeah I can b a lil upset over d fact dat everyone around me is busy making plans n celebrating wid their partners n I'm sittin in my room..blogging :P but then again I'm happy too..I don't have to worry and fret abt buying gifts n making plans..everything has pros n cons..being single is no different..

There r actually instances which make me wonder if I can actually survive in a relationship..I mean I know I'm sweet,cute n adorable :P everyone says so :D but I doubt myself in a relation..was just analyzing myself as a gf candidate..n realized I'll b a big let down..just jotting down d shortcomings of me, for a change khud ki burai hi sahi afterall even during our interviews v prepare to answer what our weakness r n try to justify them as strength..this ain't going to b any different :D 

The list can serve a dual purpose..can scare off any guy who thinks of getting in a relation with me,haan baba khushfahmi hai meri ki koi aisa galti se bhi schema :P par here goes d list :)

1. Meet the Maharani: Yup, dats d nickname my roomies back during B.Tech days had given me..n even they accept it wasn't bcoz I was lazy, which I am,I accept..no one really did give any concrete reason for it..but everyone feels I'm too pampered by my family..spoilt wid things I necessarily don't need..right from excess of clothes,to phone replacements, imported coffee n what not..it actually just makes me a lil demanding n choosy at the same time..tough for a guy to handle :D

2. Sole peaceful existence: Yeah, even a management degree doesn't help me..I just am not fond of going out..love my solace..I like being alone and love being wid close friends..but I'm a social disaster..a complete no disc no pub person..so I very much am a let down to any guy's social group..wud love to spend time with d guy but he definitely wud miss on showcasing his gf to d world..I just am not d right person for it..more of candlenight dinner..a walk at d beach person..

3. Chatterbox: As I said, I love being with friends..and any guy I get in a relation with got to b one of my closest friend..I don't talk much in general..but in known close groups I just love to talk..I doubt guys can continue talking for hours once a reln is like a year or so..tough job to do :)

4. Rebel Me: The pampered soul, dats me, has issues being told what to do, how to dress, where to go..I mean it's a big negative..but unless it's a request I take it as challenge..I am a feminist I doubt at times...I just can't take the orders, it any day feels great to do things u r asked not to do..afterall no one tells me how I shd behave when my parents hav given me freedom to live the way I want..

5. Ambitions: They make u strive, they make u work hard..they make u see d dreams, but they r very tough for d people around u..I know it bcoz I've seen it..I've seen how expectations kill u..how u r required to match d success ur siblings have attained, b equally well off if not more..n I've no issues from people who expected from me..they r d ones who love me d most n want d most for me..do not want me to get stable n stale..but I've become too ambitious maybe..

When did d wishes of those around me became my wishes I  don't know..par today I want a picture perfect comfortable life..I, without any guilt, openly accept dat love alone wud never b enuf for me..I'm practical enuf today to realize d value if money n basic comforts of life in absence of which love slowly fades away..bitter truth

6. Hot headed: One of the biggest con..I get angry quiet too often :( trying to work on it..still no solution..and the more I love n care for someone, more I'm open or close to someone, the higher r the chances of dat person listening to my useless angry crap..yeah I cool down soon but d damage is done..I end up saying lot of hurting things which I rarely do mean..n no use being sorry then..I know I don't deserve being forgiven, though there r those pampering and spoiling souls who actually have always ignored my angry banter..

This is one point I actually have no excuse for..but it's may e a true law..v hurt only those v love :-| and I'm becoming an expert of dat..sighs

7. Mr. Perfect: I'm a gal who can't use even d most common of slangs..in fact I know people find it shocking d way I generally am stuck to 'aap' in my conversation, including my lil nieces n nephews, turning to 'tum' only wid friends of my age n rarely ever does a 'tu' slips off my mouth...tough for a guy to match..u can't b a guy till u hav few slangs on tip of your tongue, till u can pass few double meaning comments in friend circle..and I actually don't mind it..but I refuse to accept such talks to happen around me..so a guy has to b hyper alert to ensure he doesn't slip sum not so gud word while I'm around :P

Similarly I'm absolute teetotaler..n I can't stand smoking n drinking..maybe I'm just scared of it's consequences..so I do get cold feet as soon as I see a guy getting into either..looks like soon there wud b just no eligible guys for me..again sighs ;)

8. Respect: Again a tough deal breaker..a relation as per me won't survive even when there is a lot of love n no money issues...I do need to respect d guy n b able to look upto him..n believe me, earning someone's respect is even tougher than earning a person's trust..specially in case of me..I myself feel dat I've too high standards, I expect too much..but then I know there exist guys who have all my respect so shouldn't d one I've to b with whole my life deserve d same :)

9. Insecured: Bachpan se..na jaane kyun..I'm both insecure n possessive..once I love a person I can bear anything but loosing dat person..I mean I'm into things completely, there r just no half measures..I'm just too scared of them..I, touchwood, haven't lost anyone close to me..witnessed distances cropping up,but never been completely shut off..and I can't bear d thought of same..so well I'm ready to face anyone n any situation...but u just got to convince me time n again dat u won't leave me alone midway..I demand hundred person commitment bcoz I give dat..

10. I'm a Gemini: Yeah the list can keep on going..and even touchphones can't reduce my post size..but well..trying to make d last point out of unlimited reasons..on a bittersweet light note..I love being a Gemini. It's one of d most colorful n interesting zodiac sign..but it's most unstable too..I know zodiacs r like a superstition but still..I do find few right applicable points...

I've kind of dual personality..tough to handle...

It's hard to grab,n if grabbed retain my attention..

Commitment comes a lil late for me...

I love my freedom n individuality..being with just one person completely is a kill daunting...and a threat to independence :D

And so the list goes on.......

Wow now I really do know d mystery behind my single status..n well it's not all dat bad..I do have lots of chocolate supply, soft toys, people who care n 'll always be around me, a really loving family...and again last but not the least, the right to flirt n eye any guy I want too..without being wrong..it's nice to keep on evaluating guys n find dat they wud fail some parameter or other..sadistic pleasure :P

And no hard feelings..I really am happy for all the couples around me...trust me when it has to happen it 'll happen with me..n I know a lot 'll change in me over d years..so well one day people might even pull my leg n say inni bad bad baatein karti thi n dekho ab sab defy Kar rahi hai..a part of me wants dat day to come soon...a part of me is celebrating the singlehood till it's bestowed to me :)

Inception....

Note:- The blog has nothing to do with the widely acclaimed movie...yeah it had dream within dream, but this particular post doesn't even have a bracket within a bracket..I extend my deepest apologies to anyone who has been misguided to this blog by the name of the post while he was under the belief that its a link to the movie or its review :P

Any resemblance to the movie is purely unintentional, I for one haven't even seen it till date (and now don't kill me over that!!!)

Having a really busy day today...and guess where I could have been busy...online ofcourse...was going through the blogs....of known and unknown folks...people I probably won't ever talk to...but one finds gem across those posts (and if nothing you do find ideas and topics to write about in your own blog :P , no much luck till now though... :( )

I was going through the ToI (yet again) yesterday (this paper would soon by banned by the blog readers to be delivered to me...) and there I came across an article, "the blog's long goodbye?" In gist, it was just wondering if the whole blogging culture and blogs have been killed by facebook and twitters (the former is always open in one of my browser tab...never actually did take on to the second, maybe because 140 words are way tooo tooooo toooooooo less for me to even pass across the tiniest of my thought :P ) but the article did worry...common, I rarely have blogged till now (barely 20 odd post on this account and not much on any other account ever..) so it wouldn't be fair if the thing I've hooked on to is suddenly termed outdated...

That's one reason I went down to see the living blogs existing out there (frankly my old blogroll is now mostly of blogs which have stopped being updated...someone is now suddenly married, someone is busy with career, some don't feel like writing anything...or some have extinct themselves...) So basically I am out searching for blogs to motivate me to write (after all one generally dies when one is surrounded by coffins...so I just need the waft of fresh air back :D )

It actually even makes me think (yup, don't be amazed... I can, by mistake, think too :P ) yeah so it makes me wonder if I should actually stop taking the casual reads casually...as to stop writing in a live mode rather start applying my mind to it (which is in serious short supply :( ) and come up with coherent, sensible, intellectual posts...but that won't be me then...I mean not the natural me in any case (though I doubt if anyone would complain the loss of the natural real me...)

Changes are hard to bring about...I doubt if I can shift from an easy flowing (and confusing thanks to the ever present bracket talks ) to a well thought-of and sensibly structured post...but then once you decide you want to change, nothing is impossible...but then (again) I really don't feel like changing filhaal...I mean I'm still a kid...and kids do loose their way (like I keep on loosing the agenda n the topic of my post :D ) so its better this way....its honest, its true...its not read n re-read before being posted...its just the real me...atleast a part of real me, which is out in open for public...

But still for a change (not as in changing myself, but like a change as in a break) I'll be back soon...with a proper agenda post..with everything perfect from the topic to the content to the reason behind the post...after all its the week to pamper the ones you love...and I do love writing (even if for most of the part I kill all the words and turn them into a living horror :D ) So yeah, this was just a teaser, an inception to the blog coming up next :)

Till I come back...Adios...

Commitment

Its about six in the morning...and I'm waking :) And for those who know me, I won't need to tell but others (if the fortunately/unfortunately happen to tumble across the post) I never wake up at 6 in morning...the only time I can be found up at this (un)Godly hour is when I haven't slept at all...so that's what I precisely do when I have a early morning train/flight to catch...when there is something that's to be done in the early hours, which precisely are more of a beginning of night to me, in general...

But then again, I had no such reason today...and though I'm wondering why did I come back (when the assignment I had to submit could have been submitted by anyone else, the presentations I had to give were all cancelled...and I have almost the entire week off...like a total of 10 hrs of class in the whole week) There is nothing I actually am doing here...nothing that I feel like...in fact, I'm being my lethargic best...any motivational factor is, at least at present, amiss...

So basically, I am awake because the net stayed whole night through tonight (don't ask me what I did online whole night...because I don't know...I actually no longer am even into chatting :-| so...shrugs I don't know :D ) and another reason is there is a complete day off tomorrow (common when one has classes even over the weekends, one should (mis)use the nights before day off this way) and most importantly...I just wasn't in a mood to sleep...sounds insane I know..but that's exactly me :P

So I've killed a couple of hours reading articles which probably are never going to prove themselves useful for me in life...I spent another couple of hours watching random videos...then switched off lights...thoughts and things crowded my mind and to keep them away I switched on LOST...its like the second series I totally am gaga about House M.D. Somewhere I am attracted more towards fictional drama I guess rather than comedy series...no offense meant, I still have seen all episodes of Friends, am up to date with How I met your mother and The Big Bang theory...and a lot more other com series...but somewhere what truly have my complete attention warranted has been these two series...

And nopes, past 6 in morning, I am not going to promote these two series...but have you ever seen something and felt yourself going through that same thing...imagined yourself in place of the characters in screen...ever identified with a character...a line, just a random passing line of something you are watching suddenly strikes as if its just made for you...I won't say I remember all such instances (have a pretty pretty too bad memory) but House and LOST actually have made me feel it...and somewhere, I don't want to let go of reality...so I'll on any day choose these two over the rest...

Like for now, after the last episode of LOST watched by me; a line I'll recall is "Commitment is your strength...but your biggest problem is 'you just can't let go' "....surely, many of us would truly identify with this line...where as a couple of us would just claim and try to prove it holds true ( but if not others, at least when we are alone; we do actually know which of the two holds for us....it just gets a lil tough to accept it...) But then eventually, how does one ever realize when commitment turns into obsession...till when is it that you are fulfilling a promise, and when does it suddenly turns into pushing beyond limit...

This question, I guess would find a place in the never to be probably answered questions...then again, I (in my effort to be as optimistic as I can be) would look forward to knowing, "How does one realize when his/her commitment is turning into an obsession?" And if someone does know the answer, this time; its a sincere request to just reach across to me ( publicly or otherwise in private; that's as a comment, or through private msgs; considering most of you hopefully know ways to contact me) to give me a lil clarity over the food for though today...and caution before hand is, I generally don't accept the answers till I am convinced...so I might be raising some counter questions..Be prepared :D

And before I wind this post up...just a quote on commitment (I'm sure guys must have run away by now after reading the dreaded word so many times :P) and just because I didn't even had an idea that this post is going to be about commitment till it came in flow of thoughts, I couldn't make a quote myself (as I said, I'm not that intelligent), this is one I liked from my random readings; maybe a way to ensure commitment doesn't become something else....

"Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach" --Tom Robbins (whoever he is :P )