Life Updated with lots of Firsts...

I have been missing in action...and would have continued to miss...lest I had resolved to make a post every week..and that's too tough too keep...but at least the resolution shouldn't break as early as in January itself...so here I am...

Last few days...like about 8-9 days have just gone rolling by...not that I was busy with work (slow n steadily, I am kind of understanding rather realizing that it really doesn't make a difference how much you work...not till you really love what you do, which is actually a very tough thing to happen...at least it's more of a dream in the Indian scenario...and I now realize why I see so many people jumping from one company to another in a year...or even less at times...end of the work story, when I really haven't been working thanks to training or something or the other...)

I actually traveled a little...and then there has been a list of things I did for first time...or after a long long time...

a. witnessed a love story becoming a happily ever after (ab the marriage did happen..after that whatever happens is concluded as a happily every after in story books, so yeah, I am talking of that happily ever after..not the literal one :D but all jokes apart, it was really nice watching two people crazily in love with each (one I can definitely vouch for...for I have seen her crazy sweet acts) actually being tied to each other for life...with all their parent's approvals )...and yeah, I know of another long standing love stories actually meeting their happily ever afters in the last few days...but yeah, I wasn't physically present to witness them and say that I have seen it with my eyes and can vouch for them...

b.went to an amusement park after ages, and I really mean ages...like as in a decade...and there hit the realization that I really have grown up...wasn't all that scared in riding the scariest of rides there...or maybe now I am hard customer to please (I remember, as a kid I loved going to amusement park...and then I would tend to stay away from all d big merry-go-rounds or anything with lots of twists and turns...and there I was, a decade or more later, trying to find one ride which would scare me...sighs....)

c. saw a movie first day first show...that too when the day wasn't Friday but Thursday...and what's more, I actually witnessed a paper shower...right from the time the name of the movie appeared, to the breaking of handi by little 'Vijay', and then the entry of 'Kancha', to the young guy turning up and becoming "Vijay Hrithik Deenanath Chahuan"...I it was fun to see all frills rising in air...all the whistles and hooting...you hardly find such crowd...surprises of all, the movie (which was over 3 hours long) was a good one...it won't let u get bored ever...and yeah it does go overboard as times (remember the typical 90's action movies...single man army, the cry wailing mothers and sisters...and the leading lady with no role to lead with) but it still was a treat to watch...the best part..the movie actually ended with full screen credentials...rather than some pop/item song (would have been beedi chillam in this case) being show and credits rolling by in small tiny part...I so have missed the full screen plain jane titles...

d. shopping (yeah it's not shopped...it's present continuous) shopping like crazy...I so very intelligently call it retail therapy...but damn, shopping is like the best things you can treat yourself with (mind it, yourself, not your account balance)...the shopping spree (henceforth known as retail therapy) started with the very first sale in January, yeah the very first week...and is still going on...I don't even want to calculate how much I have spent...but then, sales come just twice a year...and if you get something for the price, you actually should hoard it...right?? In fact, I am in strong favor of companies paying us double in the month of January and July...it's so much needed...sighs...who says companies are employee friendly...I so desperately need to be in HR :P

e. filled my income tax saving proofs...and damn tough thing it is...as if investing the money for saving the tax isn't bad on you account balance as it is, collecting proofs for the investments and HRA is a big headache in itself...that whole process probably brought tears in my eyes (and don't you for moment thing they were tears of happiness!!), but common guys, we aren't the rich ones...what would the government do by taxing the innocent poor souls...tax should be collected from those who have enough to pay...in fact I know of few intelligent souls who really went on to limit of not investing at all...it's better to pay few thousands than to get into all the hassles and headaches...and I so do agree (hope mom never reads this...she would be doubly sure that her daughter is too lazy, n if left to her, she would throw all money in air ;) )

So, it really isn't my fault (though it can be the reader's good luck) that I have been silent since a while...and I have lots of things churning up to write...how to proceed with them is something I have no idea about...but yeah, there is this one novel I am about to end, and I kind of really liked it...when I was all ready and gearing up to give up on Indian authors, I found one who actually made me think that even Indian authors can bring at least a new angle to the age old love stories (yeah they still can't think much beyond love stories...and before anyone points out, I know of Chanakya's Chants and Immortals of Meluha but still, accept it, most of the Indian novels are all on love, one way or other...), so even if this novel had the love angle, I liked the way it was written...and would soon come out with words on it (at least gives me something to cover for next week ;) )

And then there of course have been my thoughts...not always depressing, in fact mostly thoughtful these days...so I will definitely come up with lots of questions (logical, or illogical as expected from me :D ) and with dher saara gyan to be spread around, no matter if one wishes to hear or not...till then, I will keep it simple and short (and yeah, this is short, very short as per my parameters...)

That's all the updates I have about the days they have been....

The special people I once had as Friends...

Long distance relationships are a topic talked about in loads and tons...how tough or easy they are...what are the right set of things you should do to ensure that they not only survive but also thrive...how to  keep the feelings intact even when you don't meet each other for months...but I doubt if anything ever has been said about long distance friendship...is friendship just not worth it or do we just assume that no distance can create any difference between two friends....for those who feel either is the case, I beg to differ...seriously differ...

Born in a family which changed its base every couple of years, I don't know whether to be happy or sad about the fact that I've changed almost 8 schools by the time I finished 12th...and even then I was d lucky one in my family...I had the same school for last four yrs of my school life (though I never ever actually grew too fond of that school...by this time I had given up on making a true long lasting bond of friendship...it just never was possible...) And I remember some very special people from each of my school...each place I was deemed to consider home, just for a while....

The earliest memories, I believe are of Adeeti...she wasn't a schoolmate to the best of my belief...she was just a daughter of pa's friend...I must have been 4 or so when I last saw her...though I did carry a big greeting card from her to me for several years to come by (considering that in those days big cards were like something really special ;) ) but I don't think I ever met her again...I remember coming to know of her father's demise...I remember visiting her home when I was like 15 or so...I know I met her mom, but somehow I never found her again...Then it was a string of friends...from Hema in Aligarh to Ruchi and Neha in Delhi....I never have been in touch with them ever again....

Grew up a lil, came new friends in my life...I remember crying for nights when I had to leave Ahmedabad...maybe that was the city that made me resolve never to get close to anyone ever again, it hurts a lot to say goodbye...the only difference is, I mostly have all the people close or known to me since then in touch till date...it started with a determination to stay in touch through letters...to growing up and switching to occasional calls...next came orkut and then the God of Social Networking...Facebook...

So yeah, I'm very much 'in touch' with people I know since the age of 12-13...but sometimes I really wonder do I know them any longer...do they know me at all...are we friends...no matter how much efforts were put in, no matter how much I wish for it...somewhere, somehow the distance and the time has created a void, which I doubt anyone would be able to fill...and it feels kind of lonely, it feels sort of left out...I see a group of friends talking with each other, and all I feel is an outsider...I used to be one of them at a time and I know I would give anything to be one of them again, but it just isn't possible...its not their fault, its not mine too...but I need to know, how does friendship survive over the years....

And its not just the friends from school...its like people I've lived with for years...we had cried like babies when the time to say goodbye had come...it was an unsaid promise that we would always be close...we had shared our best and worst time together, there was something that connected us...it's even less than two years..and somewhere I'm convinced I've lost them all...as another journey is coming to an end, I sometimes wonder, was it my conscious decision not to let someone come close enough to me this time that it hurts...

I don't know if I'll ever make friends as close as I once had...I doubt if I would let myself open to anyone now...but yes, I always would feel like catching hold of those I had years back...I somehow want to be one of their gang again....and when people in love have so many articles advising them on how to go about long distance love, why don't I find any help in having my long distance friends again...and yeah, this blog...it came by as I pinged a long lost friend....I want to be the way we were then...I wonder how things would have been had I stayed near...if we would have grown up to be the closest of buddies, or have had a major fight...whatever it would have been, it surely would have felt better than an outsider...for I feel there is nothing worse than knowing someone, and realizing you don't know that person at all....

Miss you all lovely people I once had the great luck to be friends with...I might not show it often, I might not say it ever in person....but I'm sure I remember all of you, who ever became a part of my journey...and trust me, I would do anything to have you back...as close knit friend...to be a part of the group, the elite gang we ever had...to make sure distance doesn't forces us to have different close circles....even I want to one day point at a sweet person and say..."Do you see him/her....he/she is my friend since last 20 years...we know everything about each other...we have truly grown up together. " I doubt such day would ever come... :-|

A memory lasts forever and never does die. True friends stay together and never say goodbye." 

---Sometimes distance, however, are silent gudbyes :'(