To A New Beginning....

Hopefully I'm all set...and ready to retire to the bed (very very hopefully I'll fall asleep too...after all I woke up at 8 today and have tried everything to ensure I keep my eyes open throughout the day, just in order to ensure an early night!! ) 

Tomorrow would mark the beginning of a new phase in life....the corporate journey...finally, after escaping for almost a good 24 yrs, work n job have captured me....maybe for a while, maybe forever...frankly speaking, I don't even know what to expect...and I don't want to have any expectations either...whatever it brings would hopefully be nice, better than all the phases I've witnessed till now (though I seriously doubt it...and I'll put my thoughts at rest because if I go on wondering about it, I would be setting up expectations :P )

The beginning has been of extremes...witnessed a slept off Hyderabad at 10-11 in night (a sight you never can find in case of Delhi..), then saw the Hyderabad of yester-years...the simplicity of life...one off shops, lil grocery places...and finally after 15 hours of stepping in Hyderabad, witnessed a completely different city...a city of calls and tall towered apartments...of all glitter, and in all probability a city which would wake even post 12....stepped in an amazing guest house...and then saw the hopeless dining services they have (in fact had a dinner I never would forget in my life...waiting can b such test of patience with good doses of humor put in ;) )

By the way, I don't know about the other guest houses where the new recruits have been set up at...but I can seriously confess that the company has earned quiet a few brownie loyalty points from me for putting in a place with wi-fi connectivity...though again, I hope that this 24X7 connectivity doesn't make sure that I'm up in night till 2-3 a.m. (like I always have in hostel and home)...and then either sleeping till 10 in morning or yawning whole day (coming to which, how does the sweet recruiters of mine expect the fresh bees like us, totally spoiled after 2 yrs of college (considering even people with work-ex), who are so used to miss the morning 9-10 am lectures to report at the venue at 8:30 a.m. ...sheer inhumanity...and to add to the woes they expect me to hold back my yawns for a 10 hours induction session they have :-o Nahi Ho Payega!!!)

And well this post...this is yet another of my on the run post...where I frankly have nothing to say, but just updating my life...as if I one day years henceforth, I would return and have a journey back through the old days...this is me signing off...and hoping for a gud 6 hours sleep (baaki main 10 hours mein se for sure 2-4 sote hue nikal doongi :P ) Adios!!!

PS: How I wish, I really had someone to clink the glass with!!!

She...

Pre-Script: Yet again, a completely different kind of attempt by me...just wanted to try something new...try not to read too much between the line...it's a lil of me, a lil of fiction, a lil of what I see around me...and I'll try to make this one short (oh trust me, that's one of the toughest thing for me to do :( ) Just giving theme based writing one more try, and playing with words myself :S

She came in this world as her brother's dream, his favorite person, as she was reminded for a good number of years...As she passed her birthdays, she loved hearing her grandma tell how much her father doted on her, her silly demands being orders for him....Her mom was probably the only disciplinary in her life, the only one who had a heart to refuse her whims and yet, her mom just wanted the best from her because mothers generally do know what their child is capable of...Blessed, she definitely was, for she had a sister who made sure she never felt odd in place, even if it meant her sister had to act like a child, ages younger than what her sister really was...She grew up reading stories that ended with "and they lived happily ever after..."

Life was simple, or maybe she was smart enough as a kid to treasure n remember only the pleasant incidents, or heck, maybe memories so distant usually turn themselves into a rosy picture...she knew she the preferred one, and she indeed made sure to get things her way...calling her spoiled might be unjust, but lil gals become more lovely, when they r just a lil willful too....like any other gal, she loved her dolls, they all had a pretty name....and years later, the pictures of those very dolls would remind her of her very first mean act...she regretted it as soon as she did, but she was scared not to admit it...yes, she was already growing up, even when she continued to love playing house and doctors....

Year passed on, time never stops; no matter how much one wishes....against all attempts, she did have to grow up....she saw a lot of what she never wanted to see, she got glimpses of her dreams come true...and then there were the days, when she realized that dreams are just dreams...she knew she would survive, she had what it takes to go on...and she did battle things which people probably never face in their entire life...she was strong, she was weak...she was normal and yet it seemed as if nothing around her had any semblance of normalcy..she was predictable and she could surprise the hell out of you with her unexpected behavior....she was an enigma, even to herself...she accepted she was humane, she was prone to error....knowingly-unknowingly, she was bound to hurt people...it stopped affecting her too much, she no longer spent sleepless night repenting for her deeds....

Her readings now ended on sad notes, they were full of complicated relations...no longer was life a game of black n white, it was grey all over....she loved her family they were always with her, somethings actually are forever...but then somewhere, somehow deep inside, the bonds were no longer so pure...she laughed, she cried, she actually did live...but somewhere down the years, her life was robbed of her...a part of her might have given up, but a chunk of her believed it's not over...there is a lot yet to come, and it would be a shame if she misses out on it...so there she sits, with a thousand thoughts in mind, a heart that has survived the winds of time, looking at the present with thoughts of future...yes she is a fighter, living life always has been a war for us...she would rebel, she would buckle, she would rule, she would kneel...but she knows, she has it in her to leave her identity in the world....

Yes, she has the child of yesteryears safe in her very core....for that's the childhood she wants to gift to the one of hers...she isn't extra-ordinary, she is you, if you truly look in the mirror....

Post-Script: I won't re-read what I've written, that never has been something I liked doing...I just hope it didn't come out as completely insane n insensible....and it didn't have a lot of "She" :P ...yeah I could have kept going on...at least doubled what I wrote...I'm sure I've missed a lot of her...but then she is beyond words...just something I noticed as I finished the piece, I haven't used any emoticons in the parts of her...and a post with so less of smilies (they being restricted to pre and post-script) is just another new to me :) . Do leave the thoughts on this one, if you have any...even criticism is welcome...that might be the only way you have to ensure that I keep my hands off from such stuff :)