And the year rolls by...

Sometimes time just doesn't moves...like a month back I was wondering what would I do in a month long hols...today, when they are already over officially, I am wondering where did time fly by...I don't want to think about goin back to hostel in another couple of days...to me; vacation had just started...and they already have ended...probably my last sem break...my last of holidays at a go...but then again, its not just the sem break which got over...its a year that completely rolled by...and I am caught unaware...

This post is more of customary...after all, I haven't yet posted my this month's blog...and if not much, I really wud like to stick to at a post a month...and then again, isn't it a rule somewhere for all those who write blog to make sure to put up one about new year...to think about what has gone by in the past one year...to make plans for the next coming one...so here it goes...

What has gone by...u do need to think of it once before u let it go...(and trust me, letting it go isn't something that comes well to me...) but then again, its was a roller coaster year...I had the happiest phase of my life...I had the saddest too...somehow 2010 was perfect...it showed me that life goes on...no one stops forever in your life to share your happiness..but then again, even sadness doesn't last a lifetime...I just lived it as it came...yup, I took decisions, some of them gave really nasty results...but then again I don't regret...because at that moment, it actually was all what I wanted...things which worked out were great...but things which did not, they were worth it till they lasted...and though I always can wish and sulk as to why they couldn't remain the way I wanted them to be...I am glad, they at least did happen to me...

I am not angry with anyone...because to be true whatever happened, happened thanks to me...and being the hopeless I am...I either don't love anyone, but when I do happen to love someone, make a person special for me, they remain so for lifetime...so till the time I last, those people who have earned, captured, or by fluke even undeservingly entered my life n claimed a part of my heart, you all would always be close to me, special to me...because refusing anything to these guys is like refusing myself...trying to hurt them would just hurt me...and I am way too selfish to harm myself :)

If that was the encrypted (and highly confidential statements) about last year...the next year should ideally start with the new year's resolution...but then again, I am very good at breaking those resolutions, so for a change I have resolved not to make any...and now since I've to break that resolution, I'll try my best to be more sensible...grown up, mature...optimistic..happy (and add all the other good characteristics one should have...not as if the resolution we make are supposed to be realistic :P )

On serious notes, I guess 2010 took care of my professional life, so I really am not worried a bout it in 2011 (I don't think a company would throw me out before even joining it...at least jhel legi mujhe for 6 long months...) So 2011 is going to be dedicated to my personal life...and as I keep saying, I've invested my 23 years (specially last 4-5 years) to make a complete mess of it...I can try to devote a year to sort it out...waise bhi mature me, should have big mature tasks to do...relationships along with friendships, have never been something easy to carry through for years...I sure have made a number of unforgivable errors...but this year, I just would try to make things right...I'm not too ambitious, so I don't hope to have exactly the best I had with sweetest of people back...but definitely, a new starting...another chance is what I do hope to get...

Thats it I guess...more active on blog?? No idea, definitely none...but yeah, I am plannin to put more of my post on the public blog rather than confining the chance to read my blogs to the lucky few (okie okie, dear lucky fews, do not curse me as to why at all I gave u such unwanted chance :P) Lets see, how much of it I can work through...seems like a long list, and given how lazy I have been over the last couple of days ( for eg I took 4 days to finally change my completely chipped off nail paint...it took me over a week to finally sit down n write this blog), I really don't think I would be doin much in the coming year...but then, lets see...and start the next year on a positive note (I after all did change the nail paint, and really am writing the post :D )

So fingers crossed...for a more optimistic, less sulkier, more happy and vibrant, less gloomy me...but then again, really be a lil realistic, and don't start hoping that I would stop bothering and disturbing you, specially the elite few...they would know I am talkin about them...you guys, definitely aren't getting rid of me...so that aspect remains the same...

And here is to all, who have happened to cross by my life in even the tiniest way possible...no matter if you stayed there, no matter if we share a big long deep bond or not...no matter how closely you know me (or think that you know me)...and no matter even if you have hurt me (trust me, quiet a few of you, actually have)...and even to those whom I have hurt (I most probably didn't wish to...but me being me, I often do things I don't intend to)...wishing you all a very very very happy new year....wishing a new beginning...and a never ending journey of happiness and success...

Hey…I'm back…surprising, given the fact that it has barely been a week since my last post and of late people have been thankful that I haven't bugged them more than once a month…with all due apologies to break their hope and trust :)
Here I'm sitting, in one of d beyond counts number of chairs in the RBI office…somehow my department also happens to be one with most of the covered space, least of work (at least I feel so) and of prime concern to the bank (it handles the main core function of RBI, and also something we all love…money honey :P )

And after proving how good student I am in college (mmm last instance was in October last year when I was attending classes with a cool 103+ temperature, and I still wonder whether it was the good student in me, or some attendance maniac hidden in me which made me carry that stupid stint), here I am with a bad throat infection, a nose that's running faster than most of the municipality taps, some body aches (I can't count where all are they present) and with a doubt that I might be having fever too (I guess my intuition had told me I'm goin to fall ill in Kanpur…why else would I have packed all vicks balm, tablets, thermometer and combiflams while coming here). And yeah, I did notice something new today…took out the thermometer to measure the temperature n noticed that its mercury is giving a reading of 104 even before I've placed it in my mouth…such is the furnace named Kanpur…so yeah I did measure the temperature…but I can't trust the figures it showed me…even thermometers fail in Kanpur :(

And sitting here, hardly being able to concentrate on my 49 pages long report, forget editing and refining it, my useless mind has started a thought process of its own…who says its drugs or liquor and stuffs like that which are addictive, I guess most addictive is life in itself…no matter how much we crib and complain (I'm an epitome for it) we still do our best to live…none of us has the courage (or as people says lack of courage) to let go of life…proof, I'm now a little like a medicine shop…popping something or the other in hope of getting relief no matter how tiny miny n for how short period of time…

Am I any different from the rest…I doubt so…one can be pessimistic (as I am thought of) or one can be optimistic (I believe they are illusionist whereas I'm realist) but then the underlying fact remains, there happens to be no one who doesn't wish to love ( I know of suicide cases, n somehow I think it needs lot of courage contrary to popular belief that those who commit suicide are losers, but then again isn't suicide a moment of weakness or strength, looking at the same repeated way of people killing themselves, with hardly any cases of being innovative, doesn't it make u wonder, its an act of the moment…suddenly u want to break free n u take the simplest, easiest and the best mean available…no one thinks a lot before committing it I guess…n those who think are never able to do it :D you again know of examples :P )

So isn't life something like a drug…we know its going to hurt us at sometime or other, we know of the side effects of life…a joy at times, a real pain at others…and still we strive to live…we strive to make life better, do anything and everything possible to land up in best of health, economy, social circle…like a addict would do anything to get just another packet of his/her drug…and even when life happens to be the biggest drug of all…we all promote it…isn't that an irony…to me it at least is…why is like most of the drugs that life isn't banned?? The most obvious answer I can think of is simple…..unlike other drugs, for which there are people who genuinely condemn it, stay away from them, life happens to be one addiction that's spread all over the human race ( in fact all over the living beings, they all battle to survive, ask the plant who inches towards the sunlight, or the animals who kill other animals to survive…) And yeah…if u find yourself reading this crap, don't b too angry on me…rather just pray for this little, sweet, cute, angelic, innocent and lots of other cool adjective gals and ignore her mistake thinking that the first thing that gets affected when you have a fever (yup just checked…even in the central AC building its reading around 100) is the brain…so as it is, I've a lil of brain, and I'm putting up a lot of load on it…rest you all better understand…

Hope that all of you are perfectly fit and fine, and I find at least one volunteer who is ready to take my ailment ( as di said I'm a caring maasi, taking it from my 5 month old niece), the volunteers are eagerly awaited…take care…keep smiling, till you get ill :P

A gift is a GIFT?

We all love receiving gifts...And maybe the best part of having a gift is unwrapping it...mmm afterall who doesn't feel the excitement of uncovering somethin to find out what lies beneath...And as the wrapping goes off...what's left behind is either an equally excited and enthusiastic face of the person who loved d gift, or a bored out sulkin face of someone who outrightly rejected what came out of the wrapping...Either ways, the 2 minutes spent in opening up the unknown are the minutes which are great, no matter what the final outcome is...

Its a common saying, "The best gifts of life are most often the ones which are overlooked"...Wonder why so..maybe bcoz the same philosopher feels like d best gift is life...the ultimate of all d gift bcoz no one can gift a person a life, not literally atleast...but then I again wonder how many of us feel blessed to have a life...even d happiest of our lots have some complain or the other with life...

Another unique gift, unique even when all of us gets, is a new morning...I come across so many mails, n truly sayin most of them chain mails...where its said that it feels great in morning...a whole day lying ahead...a gift of the almighty to experience new things, embrace new feelings...but surely most in my generation feel no such thing...maybe an odd bird of us wud wake up in mornin to thank for the lovely gift of mornin...d first thought which comes to me is...wonder what the time is...can I squeeze in some more sleep...how many of us, wid either a full day of job, classes or nothin , look ahead to what's to come in next 12-14 hrs...And how come, a mornin which comes to wake us is a gift, when a peaceful calm deep sleep is also considered a gift to b blessed wid :)... Pretty ironical....

All these philosophical gifts don't work...not even to a philosophical person like me...but then again, even I agree..dat v most often don't realise the true value of a gift, n not just the marked retail monetary value, until n unless v sort of loose it somewhere...n it holds true for all gifts...the materialistic, as well as the spiritualistic...I probably didn't realise what my brother meant to me till he moved to a different city, till d time he was wid me v both were busy fighting n arguing...same goes along wid di...n most of all, I didn't realise how much ma-pa meant to me..till they waved me bye at d hostel door..n I guess being a perfect human, I wud make d same mistake time n again...since from the time of bhaiya..I realised his value when he was away...I realised what a gift he was in my life, but never did I realise dat in d same way my di...my parents were a gift too...I had to loose them, if not in literal sense, to understand that I'm even more attached to them....

And its not dat I'm any better today...even today when v all meet...its great for d first day...first week...then its taken for all too granted, till ofcourse d day of sayin goodbye nears up...thats when it hurts...when I feel like, if only v had few more days...maybe human tendency...I cud hav so much in those days in between...but laid back...enjoyed d warm familiar surrounding..but d time I'm asked to let go of it, I s tart cravin for it again...Same probably holds for love...ofcourse it would hold...afterall d deepest reln binding oe to one's family is that of love...

Materialistically my fav gift till date...well the earliest one I can remember is a set of doll to match a doll I had from God knows when...not some sort of expensive barbies, but a soft cloth doll wid a plastic head female doll is what I used to hav, a simple normal if not cheap doll...till I was gifted a same kind of male doll to b his hubby...till that part it was all fine...but along wid it came two sweet kids of it...a boy n a gal, of same type...I still remember who gifted it to me...n wid all the innocence of the age in which I was gifted d whole set to accompany my single doll I just loved d gift...I guess I was about 7 dat time...it surely hadn't costed much...but even if I think of it today, I wonder how come someone put in so much of thought behind this gift...a whole family wid proper attributes...the guy doll a tad bigger than d doll I owned...d smaller guy doll to b the elder bro..n a tiny miny lil gal doll...she infact features in so many childhood pics of me...I don't know if I said 'Thank You' to d one who gifted it all to me then...but yup, everytime I played wid them..everytime I called out the names of the doll...I guess I was thankful to that person...

How much is dat gift different from a gift I treasure today...today this 22 yr old gal, she can no longer find the joy in small lil thoughtful thing...d gift dats closest to me today, isn't even somethin I got gift wrapped...simply bcoz I went n choosed it for myself..it was paid for by someone else...all in good nature, wid d intent of gifting me sumthin...but still there was no surprise element in a cell phone I choose myself...but thats what I wanted...

Not that I don't get those surprises today...I still get all those wrapped in b'ful colors gift...but if I think of it, as I grow up, d happiness that continued even fter unwrapping d gift, even after realising what it is, is slowly diminishing....a watch here, a earring there, a sandal or a new dress...it all seems so usual...I do say thank you's for them...hav d ritualistic smile in place but am I ever really grateful...surely not as grateful as I was wid d pair of simplest dolls...

I hope the enthusiasm, the gratefulness stops deterioting further...bcoz wid this pace, I wonder how long wud it b bfor I get so materialistic that the feelings behind d gifts are completely lost on me...I don't want to b the philosophical spiritual person...I don't aim to thank god each morning for a great day ahead, or call life my greatest gift, but yes...I want to feel thankful for the sweet nothings in my life...d smallest gift wid d deepest thought behind it...I don't care if I get yet another dress in my wardrobe which I probably wud never wear, but I want to feel my heart caring for d person who gifted me dat..for dat person thought of me while buying it...somewhere at the back of his/her mind I was residing...I just want to feel d love that made that lil gift, which might b worth nothin but still everythin, come n lie in my hands...rest in my lap...

Look !!! I am talking...

Oh yeah...I am..ever since I was probably one n half or so...n trust me shrieking since even before :) ....And nothin very special in me talkin...I guess I can attract attention only when I stop talking :D ...but then I don't think I'm much interested in attracting attention...not at d cost of my speech...

But yes, how wud it be, if the quiet. obedient, lil or big things we keep using daily started talking...sounds stupid, I know...but just what if n a big IF i accept...but if it happened... And bfor I move further, lets give the credit to the thing n the person that brought this crazy idea in my head...It was about 4 weeks bak...when bhaiya-bhabhi n the two sweet kids were here...the whole family had gone to visit grandma...a simple 2 days stay there...

My nephew, a 9 month old sweetheart monster has sumthin to do wid colors as well I believe...for he loved drinking water from his blue sipper n simply refused to even hav a single sip if he was given the pink-purple sipper...even while we left our home to granny's place, all dat v wished for was dat blue sipper to safely travel back wid us...n it was right there, in front of our eyes or around us for whole two days...even 2 min bfor v left grandma's place it was in the hand of no one else but its owner...my nephew...n then v reached d car..all settled in n on way to home again..10 min in d journey, to quiten up the sulkin of d baby v thought of givin him his fav sipper...only to find it wasn't anywhere...though later after reachin home v did eventually discover d sipper...on d way it was my bhabhi who started narrating what the sipper might actually be thinkin n saying at d moment...n I pitched in to join her...

Somewhere in some unknown corner d sipper must b lying...writing his auto biography... 'Here I am, enjoying in this corner while mere maalik ki ma n bua mujhe dhoondh rahe hain...woh maalik jo mujhse itna pyaar karta tha ki mujhe dekhte hi unki aankhon mein chamak aa jati thi..jise pyas lage ya na lage mere saamne aane par 2 sip pani jaroor lete the...woh aaj pyaase rote hue so chuke hain...aur toh aur unhone mere us pink girly competitor sipper k saamne aane par use bahut maara bhi...main bhi is kone mein nahi pade rehna chahta...main bhi apne maalik k haathon mein unki shaan ban kar wapas jana chahta hoon' .....n so it goes on...

Just a lil incident...n some fun time talk on d way bak home..sumthin to kill 3 hour's journey...but thinking of it made me wonder...what if things v took for granted, believed to b dumb started speaking...what if as soon as I switch my TV on...boom!!! it asks me to do better things...things like cleaning up rather than become a couch potato...or refuses to let me watch anythin else but Discovery and National Geographic...watch what's good for mind stupid gal!!!

And what if a girl's or for that matter a guy's cell phone decides to take rest when they r busy talking koochi koos to their loved ones...'bhai yeh log toh din bhar meethi meethi chaashni mein ghol k baatein karte rahenge...apun ka sone ka time ho gaya hai re boss!!!'

Thinking of a pillow...it surely must b cursing us all...' kya bewkoof log hain re baap....din bhar mujhe ek kone mein daal dete hain...raat hoti nahi , jaise hi dekhte hain ki main sone ka try kar riha hoon...de dhana dhan sir patakne lagte hai apna mere upar...arre samajh kya rakha hai mujhe...takiya hoon takiya...koi ullu toh nahi jo raat bhar jagaye rakhte hain mujhe....aur toh aur.. kuch kambakkhton ko zindagi mein pyaar nahi mila toh mujhe seene se laga lete hain...aisa dabate hain na apni baahon mein ki lagta hai bas ab toh jaan hi le lenge....yeh toh fir bhi theek hain...un logon ka kya kahoon jo pairon tale kuchal dete hain mujhe....kya zindagi di hai mujhe upar waale....' :)

And how can I forget my lappy...yeh ya toh mera fan hoga...thinking how much I love it dat i spend so much time with it...or must b really really hating me...'ladki ko koi kaam nahi...jab mann karta hai mujhe disturb kar deti hai...n itne lambe lambe blogs likhti hai...inni chat karti hain ki meri masoom mulayam si keys...sab dard se ro padti hain...jaane kaunsi ghadi mein mujh jaise saste halke se lappy k saare anjar panjar dheele ho jayenge...ab toh chain lene do mujhe...'

And yup...by d way I'm going on muchin chocolates these days...I wonder what the box of ferrero rocher much b saying as soon as I wander close to it...' Lo aa gayi yeh chatori...din bhar chocolate khati rehti hai...yeh bhi nahi sochti ki kinni moti ho jayegi...aise phool gayi toh kaun karega ek mundi naal bhayah...shadi wadi ho jaye...do chaar bacche ho jaye fir bacchon se cheen k khati rehti mujhe...n keh dena tha ki bacchon k chalte mutka gayi hai...par nahi...is ladki wich toh thodi bhi akal na di hai rabb ne' .... :P

But then..since I'm an expert in turning deaf ears to anythin I want to...I don't think I'm goin to really stop doin what I do even if all of them started speakin...but yeah...now I hope they don't get hands n legs atleast...deaf ear is one thing...par i'm not immune to ghoonse n laat....I guess I need to build up energy to face it all...so time for a chocolate break...break toh banta hai na... (sorrie par no kitkat...rocher ferrero... ;) )

Finally answering the tag....

Answering a tag after 4 in nite isn't somethin any sane person wud do...but dats me...well actually a lil sad bcoz of some personal issues...but strangely still happy...afterall 2-2 good news...finally after 4 days of coming in IITR n having no free time, v hav a day off tomorrow...n dat too by some rare incident it got cancelled...so saved of 5 hrs of same boring one subject lecture...n then a deadline for a submission was extended...n yeah...plannin to watch a movie tomorrow...so pretty too many reasons to keep d troubles a lil on back burner....

So here I go with the tag...which is lready abt a week old...

Four Places I hav Lived...

Oh yours truly nomadic me has lived in more than 10 places...I never can settle down maybe...so well I'll just mention my favorite ones...

Ahmedbad....dats the place from where my oldest in touch friends hail from...well my fav skool is there...n the very last year I had as an outgoing person wid lots of masti was there only I believe...

Kolkata... Well its the place I have been for the longest time in my life...there are so many events attached to that place...di n bhaiya getting married...me loosing d sabse chotu ka status...bahut kuch hai....

Bhubaneswar....I did my engineering there...n I know my closest n ever lasting friends wud b the ones made there....koi competitive feeling nahi thi...not between us gang of gals...4 yrs just made it a second home for us...itna ji jaate hue sab ro rahe the...woh hi chehre jo aate hue bhi roye the 4 saal pehle....

Delhi...I lived there as a kid...but even a few days visit these days is refreshing...I just love shopping from there...if Kolkata had the best clothes n jewellery market, this city has some great places to buy tiny miny things...n ofcourse d chaats r just amazing....

Four TV shows I love(d) to watch

Bas 4???? NAAAAAHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.....aisa atyachaar...I can go on naming shows...I mean thats all I do while at home...toh the list is pretty long..par still naming d top few coming to my mind at d moment...

Aapki Antara...this one is the lastest show who has me as its fan...I mean the girl, she is just amazing...so cute n innocent...n well d show doesn't dazzle wid stars n some usual saas bahu stuff...yeah yeah I know the sister in there is more than enuf...par still rest everyone is amazing...

Hum Paanch...okie its latter seasons were crap...but the first time it came up...it was amazing...I don't think there was anyone who hadn't watched it one...all d reat things d 5 gals did...they weren't bad at heart...but just dat they always ended up creating a ruckus....

Sarabhai Vs Sarabhai...I still catch its re run....love d way monisha act...probably the best performance given by her...atleast she wasn't crying like she has done in all other soaps she worked in...everyone just seemed to live in his/her character...wid d not so forced tangy lines...

Rakhi Sawant ka Swayawar...okie VJ...sorrie but I haven't seen more than 2-3 half episodes of this show...par I can say I liked this show for the way it caught media's attention...v can hate it, v can love it...v just can't ignore it...

Favorite Vacation

Well I'm not much of a travelling person (who can b after travelling so much due to getting shifted...) par anyways some of the trips I really enjoyed...

Darjeeling...it was during the prep leaves bfor science exam in 10th board...5 days gap...3 days trip...wid di bhabhs bhaiya mom dad n me....n it was lots of fun...d weather was super cool...even in march it was cold...n v had lots of masti...n yeah even played holi wid just flour....

London...I didn't travel in london much...preferred staying at home...n goin to shop in evening...the weather was rainy some cold some...par I guess it was dat I was around di dat made d hol special...

B'bay....well goin there for a couple of days is fine, though i can't imagine of living there...it was total fun n masti trip when i was kid...full of ajanta n elloras n essel world n water kingdom...

Ahmedabad....this one is after an year of leaving d city...goin bak there...seeing my friends there throw a spcial party for me...everyone coming out to spend time wid me...really made me reach d 7th sky...

Fav food...

Rajma-chawala....dats the symbol of unity between us siblings...v r absolute suckers for this...aisa ho nahi sakta ki yeh bane n any one of us skips the food....

Pakode wali Kadhi....I just love the tangy taste of it....n the pakode make it all d more thick... somethin I 'll love to eat wid both roti n rice alike...

Pav Bhaji... Well one of the chaats that can make d tummy say no but not the tongue..I just find all those spicy tooooooo good...

Rasam...again for it tangy taste...seems like i like the 'khatti' things...n this is just to ensure i do hav half south indian genes in me...

Four Places I would rather be...

How abt IIM firstly?? yeah I'm in IITR n its all too great...but at the back of my mind I know so many still want me to get into IIM...there r a few I've not so much pleased wid this IIT admission...

Shimla....I'm just tired of all the hot weather...toh shimla sounds d right place...afterall its near delhi too...toh shoppin bhi hoti rahegi :)

Delhi....for obvious reasons n not so obvious ones....like it being d centre of India...lets u b connected to every place...n there simply is some charm abt the place...

Now a very general answer I can b penalised for...somewhere where complete harmony prevails...n since I don't think such place exist...hum jahan ji rahe hain wahin adjust kar lete hain....

4 Things I want to do bfor I die...

Me being me...I really want to experience an ever lasting love...I mean apart from family...I really want to know if someone can actually make another person most important in life....

Make sure I leave behind atleast 5 ppl, barring family who wud remember me for sumthin good I did...n not more than 10 ppl remembering me for something bad I did...too much related to karma u see...

Get really successful in my life....atleast make my parents proud of me n not let them down...

Break free of all self made n otherwise rules once....Want to know what's d big high in it...

4 Fav books...

Oh please...I won't answer this...refer to the post dat follows... they are more than 4 but ordered...take last 4s... books here

4 movies...

Dhadkan...I don't know if a guy like Ram occurs...but if he does, he is any woman's dream come true...not dat he was most caring, loving n understanding...but somehow AK in dat role gave out an aura...somethin just attracted to him...

HAHK....it redefined what hit movies mean...accepted better n more revenue generating movies came after this...but this was the movie dat made simple stories click rather than all spices coming up....

Dhoka...movies like New York and d coming one r more or less based on d setback provided by dhoka...no big star cast n still a great performance delivered...way to go...

Water...d only deepa mehta movie dat I've seen...but the lil girl who portrayed chuhiya was well...marvellous...nothin less to describe her...moreover it makes us realise how v still make it necessary for a gal to hav a guy's name attached to her....

Well Yahooooooooo....its 5 n I'm done with the fours...ab mujhe kyun padhne walon ko tension hogi.... ciao...n i hope to b bak soon....

The Silence Breaks...

It feels different...nothin like back with a bang, but still a different feeling to pen down (okie key down) a blog...and I've been thinkin of doin since last XYZ days...but then after 2 months of having nothing to do, the last month has been...well hectic...nah beyond words...

It feels like a new life...n well every new life has two aspect...there are times when I want to run away...go back to my old life (which atleast didn't hav me dealin wid 9 subjects a sem, or 4 exams a day, or even 13 chapters for a 12.5 marks exam ) and then there are times I actually am happy here...interacting with new people, seeing new personality dimensions...Whatever it has been, I can safely say, this new life hasn't given me a moment of boredom...(except today..when after d exam I practically had nothin to do, no one to hang out with...)

An insight into the life of an MBA...well I don't think I'll b able to do justice with it...common, I'm just one month through some 20-22 month long course...but it has been a mix of all emotion and experiences..a rough starting, a busy start, boring sleepy lectures where u can't dare yawn, some cool new experience...lots of hanging out...finding myself in library in the third week itself (n to make things clear, I have been in library just twice in my engineering days, n dat too in 4th yr!!!)...I've met with the modest persons here, vainest too...some really serious man, some comedians as well...

But then, one thing I was told, had read, always listened was, relative marking of MBA makes friends turn foes...when u r in a management course, u hav too put in all ur efforts, but b alone...bcoz everyone is competition against u...no one with u...touchwood...haven't felt d same till now..can't say that the entire batch is my friend, or even half of it...maybe just a tiny miny 5% but still...there are couple of people, I haven't felt competition coming from...I have seen myself as a part of a group here more often than not...made new friends out here quicker than I made anywhere else...infact hav seen people discussing, tryin to clear up topics in groups of 7-8..to make sure no one lags behind...if this is competition, its more than welcome....atleast its a fair competition....

I don't know if it wud remain d same in coming months, I don't hav any idea if the exam results 'll slowly change d equation, or suddenly one day good grades n better placement wud rank higher up than good friends n best wishes...I can just hope not...

More abt life here...well after being in an engineering college with a cool 1:2 ratio of gals is to boys, coming here in a ratio of 1:5 makes u feel more important ;) or maybe an endangered species...I'm not d youngest out here (thankfully) but still in group of the younger lot here (afterall I can't beat people with yrs of experience behind them) and still I can see dat boys 'll b boys...some refuse to grow up..infact some are less mature than what I had seen in engineering day...some re-engineering process that is....

Lost my cool here?? The very first day...n then d night before my first presentation...other than that, well I've tried to rein in my temper (and thats a tough job, trust me....)

Felt emotionally weak?? well, there hav been days but then I'm much stronger than I was during my engg days (atleast strong till now, since couple of days I'm having big doubts on how longer wud I b strong, how soon I'm goin to fall again, wid due reasons [SECRET :D] )

Busy?? Yeah!!! for the first time in life I'm busy...so busy that right from my ex roomies, to my friends to mom...everyone is mad on me...but then at times I love being busy, atleast it doesn't leave u with time to think crap or get depressed...

Enjoying?? A nod on this too...have roamed around here more than I did in 3 yrs of engg (okie in 4th yr I was totally spoilt...party here n there was d norm...) but out here a simple walk...roamin in d only market here (and believe it I'm surviving without any, n any means any, shopping mall :( ) but still its fun...a break from routine...

Studying??? Unfortunately yes...there is no other way to survive here...gone r d days when I slept 14 hrs during exams (common during exams here I've to b in college for 9-10 hrs...how can i sleep even 5-6 hrs a day in this schedule... :( ) but all said n done, its gud to study too at times...hasn't been much boring (how can it b when u rarely study alone...n mostly in readin rooms...seeing others struggle n keep their eyes open :D )

Enriched experience?? Definitely... Have met so many different varieties of homo sapient here...n i don't mean there region, religion, cast or culture...just their nature...I don't think I ever gossiped so much in 4 yrs of engg dat I've done here in a month...some record it must b...but that what I guess MBA is about..talk talk n talk (n yeah I've been complimented, or I hope it was compliment , that I've started talkin a lot...n dat was by bhaiya, after ages was I on call with him for over quarter of an hour :P ) n so keeps teasing pa too... All said n done, yup its interesting to see how good n bad people can b...how simple n conning...some lessons...well don't trust a face, don't trust a word...n well as per some don't even trust intuitions...bcoz as said bfor, MBA is a battle u fight alone...

But then me being me...d truly yours can never leave my intuitions unheard , can never stop myself from trying to live through the bonds once made...n sadly still learning how to deal with expectation...so all in all, I remain more or less d same, with some changes ofcourse (n i don't know if i shd b changing more or not...which one of me is better...) All I wish for...to settle down somewhere; personally, professionally, emotionally, mentally n wid all other 'ally'; in these two years... Bcoz all said n done, i don't want to reach back to those two months, where I had nothin to do....gud or bad, at least for now...life isn't giving me time to even crib much... :)

With all due hopes of being back soon....this is me signing off with d feeling dat d person who asked me to updte d blog is goin to repent after seeing the size of it :P but then he knows...one I start keying, I can't stop :D ....Adios....

All talks n no show...

Well...a new conclusion..or maybe I just verified an old notion..."Being a manager is all about talking..work takes a back seat" and that's what all of us here, in a B school learn...
We have learned a new law of working :
Amount of work one does is inversely proportional to the amount of work thats piled up with the person.
Another law is one governing projects:
Time required to complete a project/presentation is one day, any additional time given is meant to argue, fight, delay n pass responsibilities to othear.
And yeah, the classic one is the definition of meeting:
A useless activity, called by the person who is the last to turn up (and u r lucky if he/she actually does turn up), which more often than not leads to a good lunch/snack/dinner (at your own expense :( )

Life here really is fun...One should actually sees how we all keep on cribbing about so many projects, so many deadlines, so much to study, blah blah blah...n how we just end up with blah blah n blah...but yup, this whole exercise makes us learn what we came here to learn..TALK.. After all words are all that matter...

In these coming 3 weeks, I've 4 presentations due, 2 events, 9 midterms papers and one organizing activity...I really can't imagine myself sitting n doing it all...but then I can't even visualize all of us completing all this work in this lil while...par mann mein hai vishwas..infact I know that all this would be done...presentations would be completed a night before, events would lead to nothing but dinner n DJ (oh I never was afraid of DJ's before like I'm today...), the midterm papers...well exam se 2 ghante pehle toh padh hi lenge..bachi organizing committee ki tension, common u need to mis-organize things to actually learn how they can be...so you see so much on platter...n how v 'll actually deal with it...

Leaving all tha MBA Gyan..coming back to me (Yeah yeah..I love talking about myself, you know that...don't you??) Last 5 days haven't been all that good...some pressing deadlines (yeah deadlines again, which somehow always get extended in sweet old IITs) n then was unwell...par not to worry, tension lene ka nahi dene ka...I was talking non stop even in a fever of 104...I still am talking...n 'll continue to make people tear off their hairs with my talks forever.. "Jab tak hai jaan, jaan-e-jahan main boloongi!!!!" And now that what determination is all about...

And yeah on parting notes, we had a case study in marketing today...conclusion of the study, a line all the groups used "Love your customer, not your product" so this becomes the line of the day...and the word of the day...mmm "Cash Cows" ...We love animals :P

PS: Sorrie for the non sensical blabbering (isn't blabbering always without sense??? But then I had no matter but felt like writing...so with all due apologies to poor, unfortunate readers...here I finally let you take a breather :D )

I'm still alive :)

Well first of all thanks to VJ...for two things, the new orkut invite...its really a cool change..I've heard from some that they like d older better...but i'm in awe of new :)
And the second thanks...well to think about me...to wake me up n challengin me to prove i'm alive...well third thanks bhi hona chahiye...again to u...for giving me somethin to write as well :D

So here i start...n sorrie, apologies beforehand...i tend to b a lil boring these days...so d answers might just make u yawn...read at your own risk :)

1. A – Available/Single?
Very much single, but then very much available...d only problem is, i don't think anyone can swap me off my feet...guys tend to get frustrated from me before winning over me..
2. B – Best friend?
Well..di says i'm too gud in keeping secrets...so i'm sure there is a lot abt me dat just i me myself knows...but then in the closest one i hav...Reecha...pity, she won't even b reading this...
3. C – Cake or Pie?
Cakes...n no other cake but pure chocolate cake..just in crisis do i manage wid black forest...
4. D – Drink of choice?
I don't drink...not even water...sighs...well..still to name one, Real mixed fruit juice
5. E – Essential item you use every day?
Comb...being a gal u can't imagine life widout brushing ur hairs 2 times atleast...
6. F – Favorite color?
Doesn't my blog says it all...pink...but then i'm a huge fan of the boyish blue :)
7. G – Gummy Bears Or Worms?
Everyone wants a hug...so do I...n the gummy bears on cartoon channels look totally huggable...
8. H – Hometown?
ha ha ha....what's hometown, the place i was born: amritsar....but thats about it...
9. I – Indulgence?
reading...(but wid all due apologies again...lately i'm corrupting myself wid MnBs...) then bugging people on chat...long long talks on phone...sleepin in winter is a brand new addition..
10. J – January or February?
February february february...atleast d month has somethin unique about it...
11. K – Kids & their names?
Jaane kab aayenge woh din..jab mujhe shayad koi pareshan karega... :P filhaal toh i bug my niece n nephews...namely priyanshi, shalini n shaurya... 12. L – Life is incomplete without?
Love...u need it once in life...to make u to break u...to teach u all that can be taught...about life
13. M – Marriage date?
Jaise hi koi dhang ka banda sorrie bakra fans jaaye...woh kal na na abhi ek min baad se lekar ek decade tak kabhi bhi ho sakti hai... 14. N – Number of siblings?
A bossy big bro...n an adorable cutie di...
15. O – Oranges or Apples?
Oranges...because i guess doctors actually r handsome :P
16. P – Phobias/Fears?
Of being left alone...well i'm one hell of an insecure personality...i crave crave for love, care, attention...in any order...
17. Q – Quote for today?
‘When you can't change it, accept it' ...well I actually am tryin to work on it..wish me luck..
18. R – Reason to smile?
My sweetie cutie family...they till date have been my greatest pillar of strength...
19. S – Season?
Never love someone who changes...seasons always do...so how can I love any one of them...
20. T – Tag 3 People?
I know my tag won't work...some dead people don't wake...they r d busy bees...still..lets see if any responds...
-Avi
-VP (pehchaano apne naam ko...)
-can i tag someone who actually isn't yet into blogging...please please please one goodie goodie friend of me read this n start ur own blog wid this post...

21. U – Unknown fact about me?
I do come across as a very strong n sensible being...but then i'm not...i'm as crazy n as nutty as d last 5 yr old kid u met...so yup..handle me with care..remember what i crave for :)
22. V – Vegetable you don’t like?
Radish, tauri...n don't ask mom...she 'll give u a never ending list :)
23. W – Worst habit?
I react too much...a lil too touchy n emotional...leading to outbursts...
24. X – X-rays you’ve had?
Chest...d baby me...bachpan se sardi se pareshan :) But then hey..I've had CT Scans too :P Can u beat that :)
25. Y – Your favorite food?
Rajma chawal...dats the unity of us three siblings...till date i believe
26. Z – Zodiac sign?
Oh...I'm an out n out gemini...u can't miss d brush of gemini in any of me...
So here it is...me again talking about myself...lest someone question if i'm obsessed abt myself..but common..how can I talk about anyone else...being a gal I know gossips are for provate...no dirty laundry in public...
N here is me...signing off...hopefully to sleep early one night...for a change...Take care one n all...keep smilin...n don't miss me much...i miss this blog myself...n VJ...come bck from the sky...if u hav reached d 7th after so many praises :)